New blog!
As mentioned in my last post, I was contemplating moving my blog to its own url instead of it all being under my artist name. And I did! And now I added a little Meulin on this here main page. Meulin Leijon is probably my favorite homestuck character, and I've always seen myself in her a lot. Btw, yes I use to be a homestuck. I don't really.. participate in the modern day fanbase or content at all, but it did fundamentally change my brain.
I also added so many pages. Started uploading my pixel/deco image hoard onto here. No more random broken links!! Next thing I need to code is my actual main art website.... But I had so much fun with this. I used a lot more template stuff than I was using before. I'm hoping to have my art page be mostly coded by me, which I guess is another reason it's taken so long. I learned iframes!! I'm not great at them, but we learning. I should probably use them for this page since I have a sidebar.... But idk, they're also still kind of new to me, and I like what I have going here and would hate to fuck it up. I need like. A coding mentor that knows how to do so much I can just ask them directly. I guess the goal is to be my OWN coding mentor. Gonna watch those videos everyone talks about
I left the house today!! Which I didn't have to smoke a minimum of 3 cigarettes when I leave the house, it just helps ground me from my brain whack shit better than anything. Anyways, I'm pretty bad about staying in my house a little too long, but Sunday I got to see a fat fashion show, and then today (I guess technically Monday-), I went out to get cat food and paper for my new penpals. I got penpals!!!! A great distraction from my messy prison penpal situation. I asked for a new penpal, so hopefully they just. Give me a new one.
My mood issues have been so whack!! Mostly been pissed the fuck off for no reason a lot more lately. I just wake up in a bad mood, and then it *barely* fades away. Trying to spend time with myself, which is helpful. Maybe I've just been subconsciously and overwhelmed, and now I'm perma-overstimulated? I use to be quite good at introspecting about these things, but lately there's like. A blockade. There's so much of my brain that feels like a giant censor bar is in the way. I'm sure there's people that wish they could do this for themself, but I'm so past the point of needing to actually evaluate it. But it's like I can't!! About so many things. RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Midnight RAGE MUAHAHAHAHAHA. Anyways, gonna go punch a wall or some shit. P.S. My fucking sink did whack shit while I was on/off typing this, lmao.
Humanity? Nope.
I love being a creature!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Muahahahaha. I've been struggling with fitting in, so at this point I'm like. Screw it, I'll just lean into the fact I'm not really person-like, more so a creature in a human vessel. No more trying to fit in!!! Well, I'll have to undo some of that mentality over time. I've been updating this part of my neocities!! I'm considering moving this to a second neocities url, my blog can be separate and then gurokin can be specifically for my art gallery and characters etc etc etc.
Anticipation..
Sup, nerds of the internet. I'm a beginner coder with an alter that is way better at it than me, so this is my way of catching up. My main page is currently an amalgamation of several layouts I found online years ago. Dumbass me deleted their credits... Sorry about that, gang. My blog layout is actually mostly sweetembeded, my art layout (which is a wip) is going to be coded by me mostly. :3 I'm pretty good at HTML and such, CSS and Java I REALLY gotta work on being able to do without referencing notes. Also would love to find an alternative to font coding that doesn't require google font. Beefing up my security in general. If you have not began your great google migration, I recommend getting on that.
Nyanyways, it's 4:20 am now so I'm gonna go smoke too much weed and pass out while I play petz 4.
